My Mind

What's on my mind? Too many things. But then again doesn't everyone?
But I guess I'll pick out one of the many things.

So, sometimes I get a little pissed off over little things. Usually at my family. For instance, my sister. Sometimes we get along, but just like everyone, sometimes we don't. There are certain things about her that just drive me crazy. I mean, I love her more than anything in the world, but she still drives me nuts. We have a few things in common but not a great amount. For instance we both like The O.C. We can watch this together and I guess that's kind of bonding? Things used to be a whole lot different. A couple of years ago, we got along great. Every saturday morning we would wake up around seven or so, knowing our parents wouldn't be up until around 9, and we would go down into the basement and play barbies. We played barbies for hours and hours. I cannot even count how many hours we spent. But, I do remember we had so much fun. We had hundreds of barbie dolls. From Mary-Kate & Ashley Olsen barbies to Princess Jasmine. Also, of course Barbie and her friends like Teresa and Ken. Sometimes I still wish we had them. Sometimes I wish I was a kid again, with no worries, just playing barbies with my sister.

But things have changed. One thing that absolutely drives me NUTS is some of the shows she watches. I can see her turning into these people, and they are not the kind of people I want my sister to be. I mean for crying out loud there are shows like The Soup (love that show!!) and Best Week Ever (also love that show!!) that make fun of these people. You know why? Because some of them are assholes and bitches. I do not want my sister turning into a bitch like those girls are. For some reason just her watching The Hills, Laguna Beach, and America's Next Top Model, just pisses me off. For one, she watches it WAY too much. She clogs up our DVR with that crap. I know that she's can watch whatever she wants, I just don't want her to turn into that. I'm worried because she already acts like that a little bit. To me it seems like she's halfway there. People already ask me if she has an eating disorder and personally, I don't know if she does but I don't want her to be pressured into having one. Being a model is a tough job, you are wide open for people to insult you and stuff like that. She's my little sister, of course I'm protective of her. I know it's kind of bitchy of me, and I'm trying to be more tolerant of it, it's just that it's like my biggest fear for her. She wants to be a model. That just scares me. I don't want to see her turning into an attention whore bitch. Ugh. I know I'm being bitchy though. I know I would get so pissed off if someone yelled at me about the shows that I watch. But I don't know, something about it just REALLY pisses me off.